today i have finally learnt to accept the fact.
morning woke up.
i called her.
finally she spoke to me.. it was the first time i heard from her since we quarrelled.
asked her lots of things. why this and why that. you know.
all her replies were like. i dunnoe ..
i actually asked her whether she still loves me. that was of foremost importance to me.
she said no. i couldnt accept tt. and my emotions came.. then..you know..
i asked her the second time.. she said she dunnoe. i kept pestering.. she said she dun want to love me. nice. :)
she msged me after we hung up.
saying lots of things that hurted me.
she is so cold and heartless all of a sudden. too cruel.
went to find her at where ever she might be.
got on cab. she asked me to go back. but i wouldnt. because i wanted so much to pass her some stuffs.
so i went to her house instead. went to her house, saw her dad downstairs. guess her dad haven know wat had happened. he asked me whether i wanted to go up. just nice. tts wat i needed. went to her room. put the things on her bed.. finally..(hope you like it).. then took a last look around her house.. then finally.. i lock up the doors.. and returned the keys to her dad. her dad was still smiling and asked me where im going after.. told him i going back camp.. but actually.. i got no where to go.. just want to run away.
she called and msged me .. asking me to tell her where i am, and whether im home or not. i din pick up her phone at all. i din reply her too.. except once. telling her "im fine, thanx :)" then, where i went was a mystery..
i wun disturb her le.
i wun pester her le.
i will just carry on with wat ever she hope i should be doing and..
hopefully she will be happy ba.
st' lucy bless me.